bipolar weather

it would be so hot right now
if you were not this cool...
try to be cooler, so i can
like you more. in fact, be as
cold as ice, numbing feeling.
winter, please don't let me wait.
come with a storm and with a
breeze that smells of the mountains.
i miss you, so please come back soon.

glitches

i need a reboot...
been getting lazy and using poor excuses...
sustaining a 4.5 seems almost impossible.
sleepy by 11- seniors can't be so weak.
what they call one chapter is what i call an era.
i've been eating like a pig and working out like a slug.
i'm retaining less and less from the Bible-
but at least i'm retaining something.
memorizing verses was easy...two weeks ago.
being a small group leader of guys a year younger than me
is odd to me still...we'll see how it goes.
a couple more months. please last the night.
"hang in there," they say, "hang in there," i say.
i love my dog. God, i love You.

whaddup freshness?

after 4 months...i finally got a haircut.
and honestly, i can rock my lifesaver hoodie
with either hairstyle.
ignore me being conceited to the bone.

breezy breezy

take it easy
breezy breezy
call me sleazy
i need a haircut
hoodie count: 17

wo ai ni

storm passing through-
it's cold once again
15 hoodies in stock ^_^

sharksburg

i am swimming, but not in the river
instead, i find myself immersed in
dangerous waters, so deep that not even
light could reach the bottom.
i am not okay. i am not okay. i am not okay.
i am praying to God, who i know is
so infinitely more significant than my sin-
but to be fed to the sharks
would not be unjust- i deserve no mercy.
i am not okay. i am not okay. Holy Spirit, sanctify me.
acknowledging my sin had become routine.
breaking down and crying every day is
new to me, this feeling of weakness.
do you still love me?
i am not okay. Jesus, save me. Holy Spirit, counsel me.
guilt is a useless feeling and
regret is a waste of time.
honestly, i will be fine, because of
the confidence that i have in You.
Father, You love me. Jesus, You rescue me. Holy Spirit, You empower me.
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"For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen" -Romans 11:36

new month