kokuten

on to the next fight...a fire in his eyes
it's not time to rest yet, he picks up his sword
and walks uncertain of what is ahead
but confident of what is waiting at the end

foolish little brother

you can try to grab hold of the past, but it won't change.
just as you can cling to something trivial, the facts aren't rewritten.
you can make up a false reality, but in the end, you're in this one.
just as you can put on make up- things hidden will be revealed.
you can remain silent to keep your friends, but they are dead.
just as you can walk through a crowd of blind men in a burning
building and not lead a single one out to safety with you...
my friend, if you want to kill me, hate me, despise me then
run, run, and cling to life- you will most definitely lose it.
but hate me and i will only love you more. for a love that loves
in spite of rejection is far deeper than the love i have for you now.
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uchiha itachi remains the best anime character ever ^/_\^

free ball

a combination of dodgeball, capture-the-flag, and chess!
basically, i spent the whole day inventing a new game...
which could possibly surpass its childhood predecessor
conquer the castle. in other news, after some thorough
investigation, (also known as a best friend's intuition)
he is falling for yet another girl...this time, someone i know.
all i have to say is, "give it up, you don't know love yet."
if he spends his days fantasizing over that mushy crap...
it is not so surprising to find that he's not learning from
his devotionals. he's far too distracted, and amidst his
confusion, he may actually be trying to tell me something.
well, i would tell him to drop it. drop all the "500 days"
romance that is worthless. surrender to the love that is
eternally priceless. i love him and i want him to mature
in his faith. God, i pray that You break him apart and
that he would flee youthful passions.

health

about to run at castle park with emmanuel...
hopefully, i don't die.

fly, you fools

instead of doing homework...i'm listening to a marathon
of songs from all the animes and shows i've watched
throughout the years. what a wonderful afternoon it has been.

do you even know me?

the world really has gotten bigger for you
seems like a castle's in your way...
and you are running now on the wide path.
here i am standing where our friendship
used to be, wishing you had never aged into
the darkness in which you faithfully reside.
you have always been my brother neither
older nor younger- we were equally grown.
our time together has been great- but now
i understand another side of the pain that
comes from having a best friend. i've always
thought that the hardest part was letting go,
moving on to another part of life, only to
reminisce later with a nostalgic soliloquy.
but no- now i see that breaking the bond
would only be painfully trite, and much
too easy. loving you- despite your choices-
is much more difficult. it's unconditional.
i'm not judging you, for i know that i am
not your judge. no, i have strongholds in my
life as well- many of which you can relate to-
but when you bring alcohol into the picture,
all of those summer days in which we played
so carelessly when we were younger suddenly
have turned into night. suddenly, i see you
quickening your death. suddenly, our good
memories have started to blur (possibly more
for you than for me). should i be angry at all?
should i retaliate by crashing one of those
idiotic parties that you attend just to knock
you out so that you don't further harm your
body? or maybe i should go whip your "friends"
for being stupid enough to mess with my brother.
of course i should be angry! but...i am not.
instead, i'm on the verge of tears, desperately
praying for you! don't do this to yourself!
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Jesus paid a price that He didn't owe,
because we owed a price that we couldn't pay.

fat

in the past eight days, i've eaten food from outside for at
least one meal each day. kfc, costco pizza, carls jr., panera,
subway, and in-n-out. this needs to stop. i've been lazy
mostly because i haven't used my free time as well as i
thought i would. and thus, my entire body has slowed down,
including my thought process (explains the horrible writing).
surprisingly, my muscles have not deteriorated completely-
but my natural fitness can only hold out for so long. it is time
to do work. God, help me aim my thoughts and motivation
always toward Your glory. i pray that You would keep me
disciplined, not only physically, but spiritually as well.
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just made a workout schedule
from today until september 4th.
things are always more organized
on printed paper.