clam up

is it strange that i'm already experiencing heart pain at this age?
like, real physical my-body-can't-move kind of stuff, romeo.
if i could describe it, it's like getting all your oxygen sucked out
starting from the chest all the way to your fingertips. scary...
and it's not just a fluke either. this always happens when i stay
up doing busy work. i should probably go see a doctor about this.
but heavy breaths and pounding my chest is all i can afford to do
whilst i'm slaving away trying to pass my classes. man, i want to
go out. i find it depressing that i check the weather daily, but rarely
experience that weather whether good or bad. it's always the same
in my room night and day. and i'm always looking down in here.
notes, homework, research, schedule. if only i could project them
on my walls. and actually move around in this cramped space.
sigh...yet another day has gone by. anpan sparking. anpan. anpan.