my winter coat

twas morning after Christmas when i went
to Macy's, the department store
when i noticed my wardrobe was needy
and then became a shopping whore...

twas my father's good money that i spent
i realized that i had become somewhat spoiled
luckily though, my good boy personality
made my spending plans foiled...

...but i got something anyway

hooked

new clothes, new shoes
...something i thought i would never indulge in

merry christmas

on christmas eve

i regret not asking for more presents
i regret not giving any presents away
but most of all...
i regret not celebrating His birth everyday

today

i jogged about 2 miles and immediately lost my sense of reality
that's what you get for not exercising for months
but seriously...i was sitting on a bench in the middle of a park
no one was around- my hands were getting numb- my vision blurred
i feared for my life...and yet, i'm so much closer to living

judgemental

in a conversation, don't bring it up
it will spiral down to the heart of the speaker
amazing! the talk with such meaning
has turned...into a fight for the better being
"you're being too judging of me"
well, isn't calling someone judge-mental also judging?
it will never end once it starts
the race of right and wrong hides behind raw pride
so...all you can do is listen

if my life....

if my life was a photo...it would be moving
if my life was a painting...it would be full of colors
if my life was a dog...it would always wag its tail
if my life was a piano...it would never be out of tune
if my life was a tree...it would follow the wind
if my life was a clock...oh, i hope it would never stop ticking

viola

cute

blog post 213

all worth fighting for

it was indeed...the funnest game i've ever played
thank you max

H.A.H.A.

halloween at home again....

laughable

someone get me

out of this hole that i dug myself into half a year ago...

the jail

i walked up to it today...
the body wrapped in a bag that lay in
a dirty bin.
i was curious if it was still there...
so i took a look at it today.
there it was...lying dead and flat
i got lost looking at it...
looking at where i knew the head of it was.
it had a face too.
soon the thoughts in my mind...
seemed to fade into the idle body
ruffle! ruffle!
i swear that i saw it twitch!
and with that, my heart jumped an extra beat
but my body, it could not move
then i woke up...it was just a nightmare.
strangely i wanted to go back...

enslaved to engraved

unknown to famous
lost to found
broken to renewed
pessimistic to optimistic
which side should be chosen?


the guy in the back is not God by the way

do you think you can find it?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlaRDvzeqBY

to whom...

i'm sorry for showing my rebellious side
it is just in my human nature...
but haven't you always heard that
humans by nature are weak?
how can i afford to challenge you
when even i myself have not come to
realize my own flaws...and is this
not what i accused you of?
but why has this rebellious side
of me begun to spring up?
to blame it on puberty would be
childlike, if you will, an oxymoron

dad

i am unlucky to be born by you
but i will live on
to show how disgusting you really are

dead to me

i saw the so-called evil in their very eyes today
as they plotted for your doom
they said everything that they wouldn't say at parties
in fear that you wouldn't be the perfect son
and i ask why?
why would the people that i love so dearly want to
murder each other? can you tell me?
perhaps it is of my own sins that i am being tied
down to a chair while i see a bloody family portrait
i truly have! i truly have realized that what i have
couldn't be more than perfect...
i even tried to make them all happy with my smile
and my effort to take their burdens
no more blame, no more blame

rhetorical

why do i have a blog?
so, i can save money and not buy a journal...

under these conditions

i can't work as efficiently as i did before

200....lbs

fun new trampoline.

hotter days

perhaps it is the start of school
or the heat that keeps me...
...in a lazier state

the longer stretch

what is the point of having a race with no finish line?
it is just simply exercise then...
but still...would i feel more accomplished than before?
even if a goal wasn't made for me?
then i would tell myself to make my own goal!
and ask, how far do you wish to run?

discipleship

am i ready?
ready to give my entire life to God?
is it too early?
too early to be thinking like this?
no...?
who needs to be so-called "mature" anymore?
shouldn't we?
we come before Him with a childlike faith?
do you believe?
believe that God is your Lord and Savior.

it's been so long since

the summer just brushed past me like a speeding bullet
i'm helpless to stop it...
what am i supposed to do in the few days i have left?

school's school

i'm learning so much outside of school too

living.....

living in a ramification itself....

dreams are no more

burn it...burn the ps3....
burn it to the fiery depths of hell
if it can rip my family apart
or even half of it...
it belongs in the same category
as resident evil 4
shucks...and you were calling me weak
what happened here...did someone die?
did we rob each others lives? really?
was it worth a shot? or even a penny?
do you enjoy being hated by the only
people you can call family? oh...
that's right, because you have so many
friends called bill and coin
where did you learn to be over-dramatic?
was it from your korean soaps?

hidden

leaps of faith and hidden blades
being an assassin is so cool

3:00

-_-

sleep

even mindless people have dreams.....

metal gear solid 4

raiden isn't a fag is he?
i thought he was pretty cool
"like a comic book hero"
you'll get it one day....you noob

slaves

the tyranny of SAT classes
never stops....

glad....the opposite of glad

when one finds true happiness....
can one truly be happy
or does one strive so much
that the happiness becomes burden?

my head feels like a bomb

filled with trivial knowledge
of unscrupulous words
like how i got into this class
or this prison in the first place

i see you off-ten

i must say goodbye to william and raymond
whom have been my only companions this summer
i hope they find an adventure in new york
but i'm the one stuck in boring old irvine

rotten tomato

don't worry anymore father......
no one will ever use your big screen
but your selfish butt anymore
and no one will sit in your
luxurious couches except for
your selfish and probably moldy butt
anymore.......
enjoy your soon-to-be empty nest

breathe while you're alive

milkyway bar

fill me with your chocolaty goodness
i have a weak spot for pretty eyes

why prison never had

the ps3 may have its tempts and wiles
but in the end i'll end up at my
desk, writing flashcards for someone
whom i will probably never see again
in a few weeks of course.......

ps3

it is very enchanting yet brings
nausea among its fps games like killzone2

mars

facebook

lonely sunday

for some reason...
no one seems to be around

mac....i don't like books but

you're my favorite so far

studying bricks

one says "enlist"
the other, "sinister"
i signed up for something evil...
like the words of luis sera
"crawl out of one hole and into another"

quality

cool

nostalgic feeling

cinny & me

like this hat and pikachu
don't fit together,
but are so cute

mario cart heat

you can't beat me
i'm just too fast
when this race is over
you'll be wearing a cast
passed- i just passed you
hit you with my green shell
you spin out to a banana
behind me i can hear you yell
but it's too late for you
i'm taking a turbo lift
all you can do is watch me
as i chill and drift

sum a fun

the new routine
is getting old

post cards and flash

i think i should be considered
one of the most shameful procrastinators
of summer....
notice procrastinators love the summer

you know

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sucks

a day to be

60 vocabulary flashcards
with a dictionary definition
and a sentence example
30 vocabulary sentences
to be submitted in
1 reading comprehension
practice packet with
1 sentence completion
practice packet also
an additional grammar
and roots/ prefixes
practice packet...
the ingredients to make my day
explosions tonight!

i was cold

so saying goodbye
wouldn't bring me down
...goodbye

lost communication

cable is gone...
no excitement from the "wii"
have more homework in the summer
than i did in regular school
HOW DID I GET HERE?

joiner

i just started jr. sat classes
i'm already trying to crawl my way out

darkness falls on bright days

every dark tunnel has a light end
maybe i am stuck in a cave...

sorry i don't

pity me if you must
but none of that makes sense
let me fall into lust
for worldly things like the crowd
why continue on when it's over?
there's no way out now...
my luck's run out of my three-leaf clover
maybe i need this pain like some
need painkillers...and pills
however blank of an expression
this embodiment and atmosphere kills
and i keep thinking hell's nothing compared to this oppression

shaved ice

my hair is gone...
so what, you pussy?

signature

a big HAGS on your yearbook
...only i could be so cold

formality

hold on to who you love...
the saddest kid in science

life

touched by death

however inconsiderate

it seems...
like my parents don't even consider me
through their fighting on which
restaurant to go to...
they found it important to tell me
to give up on my dreams...
just as an offensive line towards
each other...

boss fight

reckless habits
inhabit me...

controversial

as opposed to soldiers losing
a sense of what home feels like
i've lost touch with Him...

soco amaretto lime

...and we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything...

smoking planes

devils and d-evils

slowly being convinced of my
parents' superstitions
slowly, my soul is being
devoured....
out of my good nature,
i am silenced
for i do not want to give
everything up
slowly being convinced that
life is good

moving on

run along now child
go off on your adventure
but just don't come back
when you fall face flat
on the dirt road.....

memories of memorial pt 4

the nightshift