duh-duh-te

jamming out that first song you learn
one of many fond moments of the year
nearly doubling the size of my music
library...the only non-claustrophobic
library i have been to and enjoyed.
15-song mix cds will be made in plenty
and car rides will be filled with tunes
as this year goes on and i grow old.

blended chapters

list of goals for second semester:
read the entire bible
learn how to play guitar
learn how to cook
become a ninja

loners

i almost could cry...
mystery to be revealed
we are no longer the same
never once thought...
memories soon fade away
but i love you still, again
a silence not broken...
occasional nostalgia dies
and a distance is felt.

leisure lee

another beautiful sunny saturday morning
exercising early is worth it, because
of the serene and peaceful environment.
life is good and there is no need to rush.
i saw and heard the cutest/ saddest things
today at the park. first, there was a little
chubby boy probably around the age of ten
who was running (or maybe it could be considered
very light jogging) with his mother, who i am
assuming forced him into exercising. the sad part
was that his running form made him look like a
dying penguin with arms flailing about as if they
were limp and numb. the cute part was that after
he and his mother ran across to the other side
of the park (about maybe two-hundred feet away
from me), i could hear the kid coughing at the
top of his lungs as if he were an old man. and
his mom just wasn't buying the act at all...

how come you never go there?

strange and fun fact: feist and i
share the same birthday...huh
today was filled with happiness...
a perfect score on my gov test
and a surprising score on my sat 2
going to Christian club for the first
time was quite interesting. i finally
was acknowledged by josephine wang
for existing on campus (thanks for
saying "hi" to me this time instead
of looking down at your phone!)
i never would have imagined worshiping
God with some of the people in that room
but the power of Christ unites any
who call upon His glorious name.
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reading Romans ^_^

apps-reciation

finally done with college applications
all three of them. call me ambitious.
and just at the right time, the rainy
season has begun...what a wonderful
start to my senioritis campaign.
just kidding. i tried to not do work
today and it didn't work out for me.
i no longer feel the rush of playing
video games, because it is overpowered
by the depressing fact that i am always
playing alone. shout out to wayne chen
for tweeting, "pray for john's love life."
some trolling going on? i think so.
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it has been a week since the media fast ended
and i feel as if time has gone by pretty slowly
(haha get it? because we were fasting and now
it's slow? fine, i'll admit that was lame. -_-)
but God has been so good to me this past week
-actually, when hasn't God been good to me?
i do not want to boast, but i feel...invincible
as if nothing could change the way i feel right
now and as if i could take on anything that the
world has to throw at me, because i know that
God is always with me. He is omnipresent,
omniscient, omnipotent and imminent.

discipleship: day 26-28

to my best friend,
hello. i have known you my whole life.
we have grown up together, played together,
laughed together, even bathed together when
we were babies. and now, we're both nearly
adults on our ways to college, the one time
in our lives when it will be possible not to
ever see each other again. i was born in a
Christian family and i always went to church.
you were born in an atheist home, but you were
partially raised by my mother in earlier years.
back then, all that mattered to me was the bond
that we shared and i never once thought that
our relationship would change. the naive little
boy that was myself thought to himself that life
would never change us. i might have even considered
you to be more of a brother to me than my actual
brother at one point in childhood. i would always
think of you as the first person that i would go to
if i wanted to hang out or have fun, because to me,
you were the one that could make me be so genuinely
free in my laughter the most out of all my friends.
but now, i can no longer afford to just be that guy
who you think is nice or silly or who plays call of
duty terribly but plays anyways because he doesn't
care if people think he's a noob (yeah, that's me!).
because now i know the truth and for once in my life,
i actually thought that you were going to hell...
and that terrifies me more than you could possibly
imagine, because i love you so much. and God loves
you so much. i want you to realize that fact, that truth.
every word that i have said to you this past weekend
has had the same intent to show you just how much
i love you and has been for your good. you know me-
i would never do anything intentionally to harm you
or even hurt your feelings, although it was clear to me
that you were devastated by the things i've said.
i want you to know that i have so much respect for you,
because unlike most people, you actually think about
what is important to you. you can choose to hate me,
but please, do not reject God! before you decide whether
or not Christianity is wrong, read the Bible and see
for yourself that there is an absolute truth in this
life. i will keep praying for you, that you would believe-
not because i simply want another Christian friend, but
because i want you to experience God as i have and
receive the joy and love that He has to offer.

discipleship: day 24-25

hehe i found a troll face in my gov book!
busy weekend coming up for me
getting ahead in homework so that i can
catch up with college apps...oh, senior year

discipleship: day 21-23

please tell me if you have any prayer requests,
because i would love to pray for you. if you
want to pray for me, that would be lovely.
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prayer requests:
-boldness to invite friends to church
-wisdom/ discernment in general
-compassion to see others as God sees them
-an open heart to God's word
-humility so that my knowledge wouldn't puff up
-future/ school, that i may be content in what
the Lord has planned for me

discipleship: day 17-20

is it just me, or is today just a beautiful day?
one thing that i love about the rain the most
is the bright and sunny morning that comes after.
with partial clouds scattered across the sky and
a light cool breeze that flows throughout-
i could not ask for a better saturday. perhaps
it may be the fact that i am now officially
done with taking the sat tests that is causing
me so much relief that i could run two, no, three
miles without a care in the world.
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identity in Christ is essential to our walk with God.
If anyone is in Christ, he is the new creation; the
old has gone, the new has come. 2 Corinthians 5:17
what then, does it mean to have identity in Christ?
what defines you as a person, your words and actions,
and who you are should all revolve around Christ.
take from His teachings and pray earnestly to God
that He will shape and transform you according to
His sovereign will.
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i will not be satisfied until my heart is completely
surrendered to You and i cherish my relationship with
You above all things. Jesus, the authority of Your
forgiveness is absolute. no one can condemn me,
because You will not condemn me. thank You.

discipleship: day 15-16

dough boy getting poked to death
the milk was so obviously expired
but i insisted on drinking it anyway
because the expiration date was still
well in the future and because i'm
as stubborn as a sleeping bag zipper.
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God is working on my heart.