goodbye febs

here comes the shadow
looking far out below
it comes when you destroy
everything that i know

s.w.w.

there is always silence after a fight in this house.
and i hate how it tries to disguise itself as peace.
every single time i am so powerless to kill it.
so it just keeps screaming at me with worries.
but when all things are still like this, You talk to me.
You tell me of Your sovereignty and faithfulness.
and with that, my soul rests well. You are good.

m.c.r.

middle class regime
myth creating rebel
mountain creek replica
mundane class review
milk chocolate rose
my charming rhinoceros
melvin charleston reginald
misty crescent rain
mischievous cats run
skyfall. done.

dare not trust in any other frame

"okay, i can get out of my rubble, like job, and say
'i know my Redeemer lives and i will see Him some day.'
and in the meantime, i'm not going to blame God. i'm
not going to question God. as an individual, i'm going to
ask God, 'what do You want me to learn in this?' and i'm
not going to make a pronouncement for anybody else
saying, 'this is why it happened. God did this because
you did that'- that's none of my business. but what i can
proclaim with certainty is this: if you are in Christ, whatever
happens to you is ultimately for your good and for His
glory. count on it." -todd friel, host on wretched tv

fair rating

i hear king of convenience played almost every time i go to panera
productive day of studying? hopefully, it wasn't wasted by a couple
hours spent fighting alongside paul revere. brainwashed by violence?
maybe. he ate all mah shrimp crackers. well, like three-fourths of it.
still, save some for me next time. i was thinking about why he was
there yesterday and was slightly annoyed by the fact that he just ran
into the zombies as if to help them. and the fact that he asked for a
ride, knowing full and well, but probably ignoring, that where he
lives is out of the way for everyone- except maybe faith (but she
barely hangs out this side of town). but then, i remembered his
laughter as he played lbp2. moments like those make me wonder
why i ever worry. i look around me and sometimes ignorantly wish
that people would stay a little longer- linger and loiter- but i see all
of these opportunities to love others and for that i am thankful.
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it's going to rain tomorrow. shall i get some hot chocolate ready?

no painz

yo check meowt

so thankful for all of you lovely people!
my legs are in pain from all the running
and sliding and matrix-ing and ninja-ing.

mango hi-chews

the bag tricked me. why did i eat so much foodz >.<
two-day expedition at castle park starts tomorrow.
excited to see an old friend. still can't get over the
fact that he beat me in arm wrestling. you're getting
soft, john lee. i wonder what "conquer the castle"
would be like at night. i would definitely wear all black
for the full ninja experience...points and then level up.
last year of being a teenager. weird. winging it still. =3

not as ambitious

"Hello everyone! My birthday is coming up soon, so I was thinking about celebrating it this weekend! Hopefully, some of you remember when we had a "park day" during summer at University Park- I was thinking along the lines of a similar "park day" at Northwood Community Park (or as most call it, Castle Park) the one off Bryan and Yale. We'll play a game called "conquer the castle" (basically all-terrain dodgeball tag), or we'll play capture the flag. Soccer, kickball, and tennis (OR 5 VS 5 PRISONER TENNIS STYLE) are also options as to what we could do. And for those of you that don't want to be active, you can bring instruments and play music on the sidelines! And for those of you that are musically challenged (like myself), you can bring board/card games! POTLUCK FOR LUNCH?!? We could possibly get some barbeque going- depends on how many people show up. What else should we do? Worship session? Bible study? (Kevin Chen, *wink wink) Make some suggestions! Invite people!"
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for those of you that do not use facebook, you've officially been invited.

stay 18 forever

i have a calc exam on wednesday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

blind

since i have been on this media fast, i have not really played
any music whilst driving from place to place. this has caused
me to do two things: either sit in silence thinking about life
or sing older worship songs that we no longer sing as often.
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because of the cross, my debt is paid
because of Your blood, my sins are washed away
now all of my life i freely give
because of Your love, because of Your love, i live

i need you Jesus to come to my rescue
where else can i go?
there's no other name by which i am saved
capture me with grace
i will follow You

majesty, majesty
Your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in Your hands
we're singing majesty, majesty
forever i am changed by Your love
in the presence of Your majesty

better is one day in Your courts
better is one day in Your house
better is one day in Your courts
than thousands elsewhere
my heart and flesh cry out
for You, the living God
Your Spirit's water for my soul
i've tasted and i've seen
come once again to me
i will draw near to You
i will draw near to You, to You

i called, You answered
and You came to my rescue
and i want to be where You are
in my life, be lifted high
in our world, be lifted high
in our love, be lifted high