failure is for fighters

today, i have an exam in elementary differential equations.
it has almost been a month since i failed my first exam.
nice try, but these arrows lit with feelings of inadequacy
have done nothing but spur me on towards a better promise.
i'm not looking at myself to find confidence to face the day.
but don't be mistaken. boy, am i confident- grace upon grace
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pwned it.

emerald glass

i can't help but feel as if i have forgotten something or tossed outsomething important like a lid of an ice cream tin without licking it.
when was the last time i looked ahead with genuine excitement?
i can't remember what it was like. fall in line. here, i'm just a number.
man, i never imagined the concept of how lonely being home would be.
i want to give up. i want to give up so bad. there's no point of adding
oil to a car without an engine. my tires are flat and my mind is exhausted.