discipleship: day 14

i've done my share of procrastinating.
it's time for a studying montage in which
it only appears that i'm working vigorously
while obtaining the absolute zero of intellect.
on a side note: water actually has a taste...
you just have to work out intensely for it.
on another side note: i told peter guei a riddle
a couple of days ago, which should be told on his
wedding day. it's a punny play on words-
what is the greatest gift you can give someone, if
you have nothing to offer and that person has no one
else to share it with? i'll let you think about that...
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summary of some things that i have learned so far:
-act on your faith; use the gift of faith that God
has given to you to share with others the good news.
-Jesus loves us more than we can imagine; before our
creation, He knew that He would die on the cross for us.
-suffering; it is inevitable, but should we curse God?
no, it is the opposite- we should praise God, because
in that suffering, we are being transformed and are
given a better understanding of what Christ has suffered.
-loving your neighbors is not mere acts of kindness, but
rather it is sharing Jesus with them, so that they can
also have the salvation that we have in Christ alone.
-God does not discriminate against anyone; in fact, He
calls out to even those considered to be the worst sinners.
-repentance is not simply sadness, but it is godly sorrow,
meaning that those who repent will turn away from sin.
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hi confidence.














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answer to the riddle: your presence.

discipleship: day 13

a day of work today was.
wake up, eat breakfast, start homework,
run a mile, take a shower, eat lunch,
continue homework, play with dog, eat dinner,
continue homework, eat ice cream, finish
homework, check email, plank on bed,
start blog post,
-God, i pray that You just be with me right now,
and that You would reveal Your truth to me as this
day comes to an end. continue to sanctify me so
that i may walk in Your truth and not be conformed
to this world. continue to give me strength so that
i may be able to go out and share my faith with others
as You have called me to do. Lord, i pray that You
would guard my heart from all evil things and that
Your word and Your promises always triumph any
doubt i may have. God, i pray that my thoughts may
only be of You and that with each second that passes,
i would be able to see more and more of Your glory.
Jesus, i trust in You. i have hope in You. amen-
finish blog post...
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Bible time! ^_^

discipleship: day 7-12

in my time of weakness, i got sick
so much has happened in the past few days
and yet it seems like nothing happened...
a possible reason could be that i have been
hermitized (lvl. 70 rogue- ms reference).
not to the point of not talking with anyone
but to point where i have not been openly
reaching out to others in faith nor have
i opened myself up to anyone in general.
it seems that the more God is calling out
to me clearly through the Bible to take and
seize every opportunity i am given to
evangelize to others, the more i struggle
with myself internally about what to do
in response. i find myself asking the question,
"how can someone who clearly hates
Christianity be brought to know and love Jesus?"
-but how can that be my excuse when i was
once like my non-Christian friends and did
not care much about Jesus? invalid excuse.
in fact, there is absolutely no excuse for
not sharing about Jesus, because God commands
His followers to love everyone and 1 John 3:11-24
says that if anyone hates a brother or sister,
then he is a murderer.
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if one loves another, then surely he would tell
the latter that there is life only in Jesus.

discipleship: day 6

my soul sings how i love You.
for You took delight in the sons of man
and You died on the cross to save us.
Creator of everything, You gave up
Your perfect life in exchange for ours.
from the beginning, You knew we would
sin and yet, You still made us.
God's Wisdom, that is Jesus, knew prior
to our creation that He would die for us.

discipleship: day 4-5

one word to research: "protoevangelium"
"I will put enmity between you and the woman,
and between your offspring and her offspring;
he shall bruise your head,
and you shall bruise his heel."-genesis 3:15

discipleship: day 2-3

it's ironic how right after we talk about the media fast,
i open up my government book and the first few words
that i read are, "media is everywhere."
wayne chen- the only person i know
who would call me straight after
dinner to ask if i had any
prayer requests.
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i need prayer for courage, especially right now.
seeing how this is my last year in high school,
nothing should be holding me back from asking
my friends at school to come to church. but,
there is always something holding me back-
i fear man more than i should...sharks.
God, help me become a better disciple.
help me walk in Your truth and Spirit.
help me share Your Word,
not out of obligation,
but out of love.
amen.

discipleship: day 1

prayer for discipline, for obedience, for courage, for boldness, for steadfastness, for humility, for peace, for joy, for discernment, for hope, for passion, for strength, for power, and for love.
"But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves."-James 1:22 "For it is not the hearers of the law who are righteous before God, but the doers of the law who will be justified."-Romans 2:13
God, i pray that i may take your Word and practice it.
"show me Your heart, show me Your way, show me Your glory"-fire fall down
God, i pray that these are the words that i sing throughout my days.
i pray that you make me dead to my old self
and ALIVE IN CHRIST!

plastic wrap

esther: DUDE
i'm being sarcastic
are you not catching it lol
me: HAHA i think you're the one
not catching me being sarcastic
about not knowing who is being
sarcastic given the sarcastic atmosphere
SARCEPTION

never ends

sometimes i fantasize about being
the hero- the one who shows up just
at the right moment, who changes
the atmosphere with mere steps and
a fierce look in his eyes, with
wind blowing the dust away and an
epic background soundtrack that brings
fear into the hearts of his enemies
and a resounding peace in the hearts
of those that he has come to save.
but that stuff is for anime...

window sill

i believe there is a spider
living in my window sill...
but i am reluctant to kill it,
because i want to see the web
that it spins grow larger.
hopefully, it doesn't make a nest.

bipolar weather

it would be so hot right now
if you were not this cool...
try to be cooler, so i can
like you more. in fact, be as
cold as ice, numbing feeling.
winter, please don't let me wait.
come with a storm and with a
breeze that smells of the mountains.
i miss you, so please come back soon.

glitches

i need a reboot...
been getting lazy and using poor excuses...
sustaining a 4.5 seems almost impossible.
sleepy by 11- seniors can't be so weak.
what they call one chapter is what i call an era.
i've been eating like a pig and working out like a slug.
i'm retaining less and less from the Bible-
but at least i'm retaining something.
memorizing verses was easy...two weeks ago.
being a small group leader of guys a year younger than me
is odd to me still...we'll see how it goes.
a couple more months. please last the night.
"hang in there," they say, "hang in there," i say.
i love my dog. God, i love You.

whaddup freshness?

after 4 months...i finally got a haircut.
and honestly, i can rock my lifesaver hoodie
with either hairstyle.
ignore me being conceited to the bone.

breezy breezy

take it easy
breezy breezy
call me sleazy
i need a haircut
hoodie count: 17

wo ai ni

storm passing through-
it's cold once again
15 hoodies in stock ^_^

sharksburg

i am swimming, but not in the river
instead, i find myself immersed in
dangerous waters, so deep that not even
light could reach the bottom.
i am not okay. i am not okay. i am not okay.
i am praying to God, who i know is
so infinitely more significant than my sin-
but to be fed to the sharks
would not be unjust- i deserve no mercy.
i am not okay. i am not okay. Holy Spirit, sanctify me.
acknowledging my sin had become routine.
breaking down and crying every day is
new to me, this feeling of weakness.
do you still love me?
i am not okay. Jesus, save me. Holy Spirit, counsel me.
guilt is a useless feeling and
regret is a waste of time.
honestly, i will be fine, because of
the confidence that i have in You.
Father, You love me. Jesus, You rescue me. Holy Spirit, You empower me.
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"For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen" -Romans 11:36

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