busy dying

i know we're supposed to submit and respect
those put in authority in our lives by God...
but come on, mrs. crowley -_-
telling me to write an autobiographical essay
only to tell me after i write a first draft
that i can't use the word "i" in the paper
is like telling people that have run marathons
that they're fat. trollolololololololol.

off the top of my head

from the bottom of my heart
"he is no fool who gives what he cannot keep
to gain that which he cannot lose."
-jim elliot
"For the wages of sin are death but the
free gift of God is eternal life in Christ
Jesus our Lord." -Romans 6:23
years ago, when i watched "end of the spear,"
i did not take into consideration the sacrifice
made by missionaries- that they lost their lives
for the sake of their faith- to gain life.
although in most cases, losing one's life
in a literal sense is not what one wants-
one should desire and long for Christ
and be willing to give up his or her life
to Christ. by which means, one will,
in exchange, spend an eternity with Him.

pajamas

i don't think i can last the night...
a ton of sharing tonight about missions
charlene, isabella, edith, and emmanuel
humbled and blessed, their testimonies

sadness

the old house is so empty now...
remember when it was filled?
that was all in the past

i am moving on to better things...
remember when we lacked direction?
those happy times in the past

a poor nostalgist ponders memories...
do you think of me still?
think about our past

you must be doing well...
did we not promise that we would?
sharing the stories of our past

out in this lonely place again...
is there a way back?
to that sad and lonely past

the shorty

haha i laughed too!
^_^ thanks for that

medley

i told you to be patient...
i told you to be well...
that secret that you know...
that you don't know how to tell...

game nights

oh, so there was no interactive bible study.

those days

jet-lagged without a jet
happy birthday chris ho.
i can't believe i slept an entire afternoon
even more so, i can't believe i slept through church.
although i could ask what our interactive
bible study was about or be told about moments
shared last night at fellowship, i could never
have that friday back...
now my weekend feels glum
i'm just always so used to it starting off
seeing the people that i love all around me
but tonight, i woke up in the dark
immediately thinking, "i'm going to be late for church!"
only to find out seconds later that
it was already passed midnight.
however, missing out on one night of church
can't get in the way of my relationship with God.
if i were to be missing my bibles, it would be different.
but even in that situation, i would still have prayer.
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i am so blessed to have God in my life- in every aspect.
thank you, Jesus! for without You, i would be lost in sin.
for without You, i would be too ashamed to come before God.
for without You, my soul would have no peace.
for without You, i would be alive in flesh, but dead in spirit.
without You, i would not know love.

crush

before i knew it, my world was in ruins.
everything that i had worked for, all
for naught. the day that i realized...
that my most trustworthy calculator
was the very reason i had made a mistake.

planks & hatchets

ratchets and clanks...
the rattling in my head has begun to unfold
the early year cramming has already become old
my head is full of numbers, i'm counting the sheep
please tell me why again, why i do not sleep.
my brain is spinning and it is starting to hurt.
i want to play kaleidochompirachu-scoobert.

feist-y

goal for this year:
read the Bible at least once every day
without compromise. no matter how tired
or how stressed or how busy i am,
i will pick up the Word and read it!
this means that if i stay up to do work
in which i see no end, i will at least
reserve the time between 11:30-12:00
to simply spend time with God.
of course, i am not saying that i
will put Him off for the rest of the day.
in fact, i don't think i even could
if i wanted to- and that's a good thing.
after all, building a relationship
with God is what i live for!

spin

yes, i like songs that build up.
i also like stories that build up.
stories, to me, include dramas.
punch lines can be the result of a build up,
but sometimes, jokes should be shorter.
i guess, for me, i like to experience
the entirety of a song to the most minute emotion.
whether the song starts off slow,
then speeds up and forms an upbeat mood;
or starts off soft, then rises in volume
to draw my attention to every note,
i like to simply soak it all in.
from start to finish, i want it all
(that is why i hardly ever skip a song).
perhaps it is my unnecessary courtesy
for the artist or director or playwright
that keeps me watching and listening
...waiting patiently for communication.

kaleidochompirachu-scoobert

i feel like i'm going to die.
chocolate is to be enjoyed...
not engulfed.

putt...hot....

next time, we're going bowling
...or at least somewhere with ac.
although we may have our differences,
i feel blessed to have school friends.
finally, we have classes together...
in senior year.

david may cry

i cried.
it was quite possibly the most bizarre experience i've ever had. not that i cried- because i cry all the time- but rather that i was completely happy and content when i did. my mind and my heart both knew what was going on and yet my body acted on its own, bursting into tears. i could not comprehend how such an involuntary flow of tears without any motive or incentive was possible so i naturally laughed...while i was weeping like a poor defenseless child. i am glad now that it brought smiles to the faces of my brother and mother as they watched me rolling on the floor during my crying-laughing breakdown. God, you are funny and i love you.

my folder

"john moments"- frisbee moment, breadstick moment, ninja-gated-community moment, roleplaying moment

"john quotes"- rain can't stop love; oh, i have the esv version so that's different from the niv...duh; you're special too...except when you clap your hands like a seal...you're not special, you're just weird; your mind goes in circles- well, i don't know what shape your mind goes in...; hi uh...don't say 'uh' fine! hi CONFIDENCE!!!

i suppose i've acted quite silly my entire life.

focus

physics 101 "when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object"
"when an on-task worker meets an inevitable distraction"