peaceful morning

as i woke up, i sang lying in bed: "hallelujah, holy holy, God almighty, great I Am, who is worthy, none beside thee, God almighty, great I Am!" i am grateful for what i've learned in the past month. in everything i do, i must depend on God and trust His faithfulness until the end. adopt-a-child wouldn't have even happened this year if it were not by God's grace and provision of strength, endurance, patience, joy, and love. i've learned that in serving, joy and love go hand-in-hand. i would not have served with joy if i did not love those whom supported me and those whom i've been praying for to hear the gospel message. i also would not have loved serving if i wasn't constantly reminded of the joy that i have in Christ, knowing well that none of my good deeds could ever replace the salvation by His blood. looking back, i am still amazed that God used a person like me, who is naturally shy and often too child-like for his own good, to coordinate this event. i am still amazed that God would use a sinner like me to bring glory to Himself. i am grateful still that i have been given such a great opportunity to serve and worship the God of the universe! but i know it doesn't end here. i know that there is a purpose for me beyond just adopt-a-child (otherwise, i might have dropped dead after announcing snacks). wherever God leads me, i will go and i will obey. i am still amazed that i won the super soaker i named him "pastor joseph" (be baptizing eerbuddy) you know how i'm sometimes, and i say sometimes lightly, i can be a little too child-like for my own good? well, let's just say "pastor joseph" gave me an idea for summer. conquer the castle 2.0? i think so.

navi

my mom is hurt...my dad is hurt. i am hurt too.
she is terrible with a grudge, i am too...
he is either unstable or a liar, i am too...
i told her, "forgive him, no matter how he's hurt you"
i told him, "help her, because you love her"
how easy is it for us creatures to forget Christ in our
moments of emotional distress...it makes me terrified
she told me, "for once in my life, i wish i was the one
that could hurt others"-you have, i am hurt.
he told me, "she is so dumb, she always helps other
people, but she never considers me!"- since when is
helping others in need a bad thing?
you're both being stubborn and it doesn't matter what
you say to me. i will not choose between my parents.
instead, i will stand firm in this joy that i have,
being saved from my sins, regardless of how deep they
were entwined in my life, by Jesus Christ our Lord.
and really, what is there to argue about? and really
what else needs to be done? isn't salvation enough?
does a current struggle change the fact that Jesus
loves you? go to Him! pray to Him in repentance!
His love is greater than any struggle! seek Him!
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the kid in me wants to spray both of my parents
in the face with my new super soaker...
the adult in me wants to drive to target to
find a bigger water gun to give to the kid in me.
please pray for my parents.

jokes at one in the morning

staying up, talking to my brother and mom-
brother: (telling me to rip a heavily folded paper) come on.
me: (struggling to rip) bleh.
brother: (looks disappointed) what's wrong? too weak?
me: well...(smirk) i haven't exercised in two weeks. get it?
brother: hey, how's the elevator business going?
me: no wait, i've heard this one. (can't remember answer)
brother: ask me the question then.
me: okay, how's the elevator business going?
brother: hmm...it has its ups and downs.

dangerous passion

"So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything,
but only God who gives growth." -1 Corinthians 3:7

i am free

ah...those nights after a long day when you can
shout "i am free to live for You!"
i pray that every night would be the same
and that each night i would find joy in giving
You all the praise.

no nappa

vegeta! what does the scanner say about the adopt-a-child skit?
(takes scanner and crushes it) it's over 9000 words long!

gungor

Jesus sees john,
Jesus sees steeples,
He sees His people get it wrong.
so trust Jesus, john.
so trust Jesus, people.
Jesus will come and save us all.

coffee and prayer

Your yoke is easy and burden light.
help me fight, Lord. help me fight.

greetings from norcal

my brother returned home today after a week-long absence
he told me that his girlfriend's family is huge, so he
didn't do much but meet people. future in-laws are lovely.
of course, he came back wondering what my final decision
was for college and while i was explaining my plans and how
i had begun to grow up, his mind wandered off to other things.
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brother: "hey, do you think we could combine your room with mine?"
me: "huh, what do you mean? you want to share a room with me?"
brother: "hmm, we could take out half of the wall that is in between..."
me: "wow, aren't even a bit excited that i'm going to college?"
brother: "sure i'm excited! i can put a new couch here." (points to my bed)
me: "go find a job first." -_-
brother: "no, i think i'm going to stay here with my new room"
me: "but what about me? where will i stay when i come back?"
brother: "oh, you can...have the play room."
when i get tired of playing the straight man, i decide to join him.
me: "oh, what about this corner? you could have maybe a fusball table!"
brother: "nah, you're ideas are lame."
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and people think i'm a troll? well, i am, but
hey, we all learn from someone, don't we?