am i liable

dear max, i doubt we're going to have a sleepover anytime
soon and i can't wait until winter retreat, so i'm going to hope
that you read my blog between now and then. consider this
as both a warning and a sincere distress call. and a rant.
so you know how i always give you rides back home after
church and other places when we hang out? well, my parents
aren't quite so happy about that. in fact, they're telling me that
i'm hurting you by doing so and that you are a victim in this
little fiasco. earlier today, they told me that your parents and i
are at fault for spoiling you and that in the process, your parents
are receiving all the benefits of saving money. they also said
that your parents are selfishly shifting the responsibility onto
nice guys like me. they've been telling me that i'm a 'nice guy'
like it's the worst thing in the world. who are they? wongfu?
anyway, i'm not concerned if i am forever banned from driving
you around. what concerns me is the bitterness that could result
from it and the bitterness towards your parents that is already
present in my parents' hearts. i wonder what you think of all
this- weird that i bring up such a trivial subject, huh? it just
pisses me off when people i know are badmouthed. at least
i want you to know this: driving you around is not an obligation
for me at all. you don't burden me nor make me feel used.
i'm actually thankful that i get to take you places to have our
adventures. you know what i would tell my parents if they
genuinely asked me why i drive you? it's because when you
sit in my car, i've got my wingman. you answer my phone
for me when i'm driving- you probably saved my life a few
times. you also laugh there with me (mostly at me) so i don't
feel so lonely going back home all the time. you know what
i'm talking about? all those times i would do something stupid
at a drive thru or just act silly in general. but most important
of all reasons why i choose to drive you is that you open up
to me when we're on the road. you don't really do that in group
gatherings, so it's rare to hear your deeper thoughts. do you
know how happy i am to hear your opinions of speakers,
bible studies, small group discussions, etc.? even though your
opinions about wreck-it ralph are completely wrong. of course,
we already spend a lot of time together- so much that people are
just starting to get us mixed up. is john really that much harder
to remember than max? or is everyone collaborating to call me
by your name just to mess with me? i don't know anymore, man.
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