march on, soldier

you know those nights when you've got this idea in your head
that you feel grows more and more as you roll in bed losing sleep?
i have been having those quite often recently- sometimes i even beg
God to knock me out even though i'm thankful for these wonderful
brilliant thoughts. the john lee of two years ago...he's becoming
furious. he wants to tell his little brother to run from this whole
affair before all the church drama repeats itself (i still hate church
drama). he wants to tell him that he is a fool for putting himself in
this dangerous situation- outside of Scripture. he wants to tell his
best friend to repent of this lustful relationship and turn to Christ.
he wonders if that boy even cared enough to ask God if it was His
will to seek this girl (with the intention of marriage)! intense?
holiness and radical Christian living ought to be taken seriously!
but...it's been two years after all. i have been praying for your sake
since then and i expect you to have grown from then- growth is
irrevocable if you are truly in Christ. enough with the gossip and
away with the apathy. pick up your sword and fight, young man!