elephant tranquilizer

sunrise at castle park

 daydreaming about acts of heroism and group games at 4 in
the morning is a slight mixture of both long-suffering boredom
and pain-killer induced joy. i got all of my wisdom teeth pulled
today...er, yesterday if we're being technical. so far, it's not as
bad as everyone has made it seem. except for the lack of food
in my stomach, everything else seems to be in check. the hunger
and the soreness have not not had their negative effects though.
not a drop of caffeine and i can't even get a second of sleep. in
my routine of closing my ideas, desperately trying to shut off
my brain, my brain's activity has only increased exponentially
about potential games to play during college retreat and about
illogical things i would do to protect people i know during
unlikely dangerous situations. humorously enough, the latter
thought process was occasionally the result of the former- me
thinking of somewhat dangerous games. i noticed that the main
game i had in mind was rather sadistic on my part. i wonder...
is that just me being crazy late at night or has the theme of the
games i create conformed to the sarcastically mean attitude of
generally everyone (except like olivia) in the college fellowship?
i'm just kidding...tammie is not sarcastically mean neither.
well, since my brain won't shut up anytime soon, it's time to go
put some of these ideas on paper. i hope that in a couple days,
i don't end up looking back to them and think they are terrible.
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if you have any ideas for group games that you'd like to play, tell me!
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hi there, sun! it is now 6:27 a.m. i looked over my sheet of directions
of what NOT to do after the operation...and i already violated two of
those things lol. maybe that's why there was pain early on. and maybe
that's why i couldn't sleep. moments of revelation like this...s.o.m.l.
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7:30- i decided to go on a walk to castle park. as i was walking, i saw
how the sun rising changed the look of my surroundings minute after
minute and i asked myself "why don't i do this every morning?" and
then i was like "oh, because sleep." at the park, i chose to conduct an
experiment in which i rediscovered the meaning of the word
"balancing" except with painkillers in my system. "don't fail me now
physics" i said while giggling at the horse seesaw below my feet.
surprisingly, i remembered how the center of gravity worked.