mustang

i should have given you a hug goodbye. and prayed for you as a
way of sending you off like a missionary. but i was gross.
is it strange that i feel defeated when i become this...ambitious?
will i blend with the background of the sea of the studious or will
i escape the mundane routine and be a light? seeing how i have
failed to speak truth in those moments thus far, i am not sure.
it becomes so complicated now. i just want to love and encourage
you, but pride and fear get in the way. don't forget, john, you will
fail to love perfectly and you will occasionally stumble. but God-
Christ Jesus is your advocate and He loves them in your place.
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watch this young naive boy be used by God to shout His love.
this summer is going to be awesome. i can just feel it.
...also, i'm going to be the third wheel just about everywhere.