ccm log 4

ministry is messy. that is how it is and that is how it should be. over the last few days, i have had to go through difficult conversations with people in leadership about discouragements and doubts regarding ccm. mostly about how one of the core members decided to give up on following Christ and another core member that has been struggling with depression, which has led to questionable leadership behavior in recent weeks. while these things might trigger thoughts like "this is to be expected of a dying ministry" or "this is proof that what we are doing is meaningless", i cannot help but feel a certain weightiness regarding my own life and walk with Christ. what can i do? as president, when i see this turmoil going on in leadership, the thought that i can't seem to shake is "be a faithful rock. be a loving shepherd". a calling to be an example to these broken people- even as i am broken- to show them what it means to sacrifice everything for the pursuit of God and to grow a heart for people's souls.