reinstated

so today while i was doing homework, the power
decided to stop working. it was very dark in my
room then, but i did not worry, instead i smiled.
finally, i got to use the flashlight from the
time machine i built months ago. so, i continued
on with my work. happy with the fact that this
darkness overtook me momentarily so that i could
fully appreciate the light that now guided me.
----------------------------------------------------
last week, i changed. i was hurt, depressed,
vulnerable, ashamed, confused, and self-centered.
i became cold and suddenly the rain did not
inspire me to dance or laugh. it drained me. and
i was drowning in self-pity, thinking i could
never make a difference. thinking i was useless.
but God in His grace saw it fit to allow this
to happen to me, so that He could teach me.
let me say this, my shield was lowered, but i
never stopped fighting. now i see what You meant
when you called me to be a light. there is so
much darkness in our world today and although
the whole world has the sun, only a few have the
Son. like a real image, i must invert their sight,
which is blindness now, to be geared towards You.
to gaze upon You, that is all i want to see.
thank You, God. this is probably the most
unconventional way You have ever used to help me
get passed a writer's block. it taught me more
than just how to write a script. help me write
another story, Your story. Your script, always.